Well, things have gone horribly. I am so sick and so weak. It’s getting harder and harder for me to function and with each round of chemo it’s taken me so much longer to recover. It has gotten so bad that my mom has decided to come back out from Kansas for a few weeks to help me. I am having a hard time doing anything because I am just so sick and so tired that I can hardly stand it. My body aches, my teeth hurt, I’m exhausted, I’m nauseous all the time. I knew chemo was going to suck, but I really didn’t think it’d be this bad.
It was great to have my mom with me for chemo and I even met a new friend at chemo today, too. She is going through chemo for colon cancer and we shared a room today. I had my mom and she had her friend, Roy, with her and at first we didn’t say much to each other, but after sitting side-by-side, having poison run through your veins, you sort of share a bond. So we started talking and we all laughed and laughed. Allyson doesn’t have Facebook or social media, but Roy does, so we friended each other and I really hope we all remain friends after all this is over.
We have different cancers … but cancer is cancer and it’s good talk to someone who actually “gets” it.
Today is my first treatment on a Wednesday and then I’ll go back in tomorrow and Friday for my fluids and anti-nausea IV. I really, really hope that this new treatment plan works. I really can’t take it.
I am trying so hard to remain positive and in good spirits, but every day it’s getting harder and harder.