Recommitting Myself

Today is a new day at the beginning of a new week … I’m going to do my best to stay focused on my goals this week and not keep getting pulled back down the rabbit hole in my own mind.

I think one of the reasons I’ve been so blue lately is that I haven’t set any real goals for myself and am not holding myself accountable. When things get tough instead of pushing through it, I fall back into my old ways: shutting everyone out, sleeping/watching TV, and eating crap. Some people drink alcohol, or smoke cigarettes, or do drugs to escape or feel better. I don’t do any of those things, but I turn to food when I feel sad, and if you’ve read any of my blogs in the past few months, you’ll notic64188-today-is-a-new-daye I feel sad pretty often.  I just felt so rejected and alone battling cancer and going through chemo without any support system – that does something to a person, well, at least it did me. It destroyed my self-confidence completely, but today, I am going to work to think positive thoughts and stay focused on my goals.

When I eat right and exercise (walk) I always feel better, but I keep falling off. Today, I am recommitting myself to a healthy lifestyle. I want to feel good and be working towards my goals. I want to stay focused and not just lay down and quit when things get tough. That is NOT who I am. I don’t like who I have become and in order to start liking myself again – I need to actually BE myself again.  And the old Dana would never just lie down when things got tough … that would motivate her to do better and work harder. I want to be her. And today, I am going to take steps towards finding myself again.

There are factors that I cannot control and life is full of stressers for everyone. I need to use them as motivation, not handicaps. I can’t promise that I will not have setbacks … and I acknowledge that I may slip up once in a while and it’s ok to slip … it’s not ok to stay laying down and except defeat.

Here are the small lifestyle changes that I am committing myself to:

– Meal Plan every day (pack breakfast, lunch and healthy snacks for work – AND plan healthy dinner)

– Exercise a minimum of 30 minutes per day (this can be broken up into 3 – 10 minute walks, strength training at home, etc. but must complete at least 30 minutes of activity per day)

– READ! I love reading books, put the phone down and read an actual book for a minimum of 20 minutes per day

– Journal in my private, handwritten journal before bed about my day to “get it off my chest” so I can sleep better

– Log all food eaten and exercise

These are small goals, and I firmly believe starting small will really help me succeed. I want to stay motivated and when I get discouraged or down, I want to do sometkeep-calm-and-make-healthy-choiceshing positive to get through it, not resort to old, bad habits.

I am so blessed and have so much to be thankful for …. I owe it to myself, and to Aiden, to live and be better. I found my cancer early and was able to beat it. I have been given a second chance … now, it’s up to me to live up to my potential and be a better me than ever before!

3 thoughts on “Recommitting Myself

  1. I am totally with you! And I know it is not easy to change your habits once you put your mind in it it will work out. You can do it as much as you could battle cancer you can do this! I trust you!


    1. Thank you! When I got the news, almost a year ago, that I had breast cancer, I fell apart. After all the surgeries and chemo, I’m finally ready to start working on getting myself healthy again.
      Thank you for your kind words and I wish you prayers and support for your battle. You’ve got this!


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