Happy (belated) Valentine’s Day

I wanted to write yesterday to wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day … but as my life is getting back to normal, so is my schedule. And by my schedule being “normal,” I mean jam packed and chaotic. I am probably one of the busiest, boring people you’ll ever meet! Valentine’s Day doesn’t mean too … Continue reading Happy (belated) Valentine’s Day

Keeping My Promise To Myself

I am finally breaking out of my rut. I’ve been stuck for the past year, my mood has gone up and down, but mostly down. The hopeless feeling of having breast cancer, the mastectomy, the failed first attempt at reconstruction, the misery I felt for months of chemo, loneliness and isolation … everything was just … Continue reading Keeping My Promise To Myself

Breast Reconstruction Scheduled

Since my first attempt at my breast reconstruction failed after my bilateral mastectomy with partial reconstruction last year I've been terrified to have a 5th surgery on my chest. But now that I've completed chemo and my first 3-month cancer screening came up clean, I really want to get on with my life and put all … Continue reading Breast Reconstruction Scheduled

Three Month Cancer Screening: Success

I would be a damn liar if I said that I haven't been stressed, preoccupied, and scared shitless the past few weeks waiting for this first screening since finishing chemo 3 months ago. Three months ... That's it. Honestly, it feels like a lifetime ago, but also like it was just yesterday that I was … Continue reading Three Month Cancer Screening: Success

Recommitting Myself

Today is a new day at the beginning of a new week … I’m going to do my best to stay focused on my goals this week and not keep getting pulled back down the rabbit hole in my own mind. I think one of the reasons I’ve been so blue lately is that I … Continue reading Recommitting Myself

Trying to Find My New Identity

Today I'm really trying to get it together. I feel sad for so many reasons, yet, no reasons at all. I really wanted to attend the Women's March on Washington because I live only about 30 minutes away, but I am fighting off a cold and the sheer thought of being surrounded by hundreds of … Continue reading Trying to Find My New Identity

Ready to Reconstruct

I had a lot of issues with my mastectomy with partial reconstruction – so many that after about a month of extra ER visits, appointments with my surgeon, hospital stays, and extra surgeries that I finally had the expanders removed.  I am the exception and not the rule, but the pain I endured for almost … Continue reading Ready to Reconstruct