My Final Surgery

Tomorrow, September 7, 2017 I'm having my final breast surgery. I'm excited and extremely nervous at the same time. Tomorrow, my surgeon is removing the temporary breast tissue expanders and inserting the permanent silicone implants. It's been a hell of a ride since getting the call to come in for a follow up mammogram back … Continue reading My Final Surgery

Pictures From Breast Reconstruction

I'm sure people will find these photos gross, and even say that I'm sharing too much. And that's your right to think and say that, but it's also my right to share my story and my photos. I want other women who are facing breast cancer and the possibility of a mastectomy with breast reconstruction … Continue reading Pictures From Breast Reconstruction

I Gave the Title “Friend” Away Too Easily

Growing up in Atchison, Kansas, population around 11,000 we were all close. My childhood best friend is still one of my closest (distant) friends.  We waved when we drove past people and spoke to people when in line at the store; pretty much anywhere I went I knew people and it’s still like that.  I … Continue reading I Gave the Title “Friend” Away Too Easily

Express Yourself

I had to wait 4 1/2 weeks until my surgery, on top of the 3 1/2 months I had already been talking to doctors, having tests and waiting. I was so sick of waiting. I have this deadly disease and had been told by my oncologist that it’s one of the most fatal on its own, but … Continue reading Express Yourself

I Laugh to Keep From Crying

I often get told about how brave I am, how strong I am, how well I handled the cancer, surgeries, chemo, and now life after it all. The truth is – I haven’t handled it well at all. I just don’t let that side show; I smile often even when I want to frown. I … Continue reading I Laugh to Keep From Crying

Even Strong People Are Weak

Everyday continues to be a struggle. I have fabulous days – on these days I feel like I can conquer the universe. Other times, I just can’t seem to get it together. I can’t focus, I am sad, mad, and self-deprecating. It feels like the fabulous days are so few and far between any more. … Continue reading Even Strong People Are Weak

I Didn’t Sign Up For All of This

Now that I have completed my chemo and my cancer is in remission, I am doing my best to pick up the pieces and get on with my life … but every time I do, I get a stark reminder that I am not the same. I can’t just jump in and do things like … Continue reading I Didn’t Sign Up For All of This