My Final Surgery

Tomorrow, September 7, 2017 I'm having my final breast surgery. I'm excited and extremely nervous at the same time. Tomorrow, my surgeon is removing the temporary breast tissue expanders and inserting the permanent silicone implants. It's been a hell of a ride since getting the call to come in for a follow up mammogram back … Continue reading My Final Surgery

Nine-Month Cancer Screening

I went in yesterday for my 9-month cancer check-up with my oncologist. For the past week I was on pins and needles – and my anxiety level was through the roof. As any breast cancer survivor will probably tell you – we all live with the constant fear of the cancer coming back. We have … Continue reading Nine-Month Cancer Screening

Keeping My Promise To Myself

I am finally breaking out of my rut. I’ve been stuck for the past year, my mood has gone up and down, but mostly down. The hopeless feeling of having breast cancer, the mastectomy, the failed first attempt at reconstruction, the misery I felt for months of chemo, loneliness and isolation … everything was just … Continue reading Keeping My Promise To Myself

Trying to Find My New Identity

Today I'm really trying to get it together. I feel sad for so many reasons, yet, no reasons at all. I really wanted to attend the Women's March on Washington because I live only about 30 minutes away, but I am fighting off a cold and the sheer thought of being surrounded by hundreds of … Continue reading Trying to Find My New Identity

I Gave the Title “Friend” Away Too Easily

Growing up in Atchison, Kansas, population around 11,000 we were all close. My childhood best friend is still one of my closest (distant) friends.  We waved when we drove past people and spoke to people when in line at the store; pretty much anywhere I went I knew people and it’s still like that.  I … Continue reading I Gave the Title “Friend” Away Too Easily

Express Yourself

I had to wait 4 1/2 weeks until my surgery, on top of the 3 1/2 months I had already been talking to doctors, having tests and waiting. I was so sick of waiting. I have this deadly disease and had been told by my oncologist that it’s one of the most fatal on its own, but … Continue reading Express Yourself

I Laugh to Keep From Crying

I often get told about how brave I am, how strong I am, how well I handled the cancer, surgeries, chemo, and now life after it all. The truth is – I haven’t handled it well at all. I just don’t let that side show; I smile often even when I want to frown. I … Continue reading I Laugh to Keep From Crying