I Laugh to Keep From Crying

I often get told about how brave I am, how strong I am, how well I handled the cancer, surgeries, chemo, and now life after it all. The truth is – I haven’t handled it well at all. I just don’t let that side show; I smile often even when I want to frown. I … Continue reading I Laugh to Keep From Crying

I Didn’t Sign Up For All of This

Now that I have completed my chemo and my cancer is in remission, I am doing my best to pick up the pieces and get on with my life … but every time I do, I get a stark reminder that I am not the same. I can’t just jump in and do things like … Continue reading I Didn’t Sign Up For All of This

Feeling Pretty Bummed Out These Days

Christmas is only a few days away and I’m doing my best not to feel so bummed out. I know that I survived cancer, trust me, I count my blessings every day. But I am having a hard time coping with “life after cancer (and chemo).” Not many people rallied around me when I was … Continue reading Feeling Pretty Bummed Out These Days

I Was Mad at God

Even though it was almost a year ago, I remember it like it was yesterday … I had just come home to Maryland from a nice two-week vacation visiting my family and friends in Kansas for the holidays and I was ready to get back to my crazy busy life. It was January so that … Continue reading I Was Mad at God

Chemo is Complete, But I Learned A Lot Along the Way

Wow…after this long, 4 1/2 month road, I finally completed my FINAL chemo treatment on Sept. 21, 2016!I went through chemo from June 9 – Sept. 21. In all honestly, I had a hell of a horrible experience. There were days that I literally felt so sick that I contemplated if death would have been a … Continue reading Chemo is Complete, But I Learned A Lot Along the Way