Even Strong People Are Weak

Everyday continues to be a struggle. I have fabulous days – on these days I feel like I can conquer the universe. Other times, I just can’t seem to get it together. I can’t focus, I am sad, mad, and self-deprecating. It feels like the fabulous days are so few and far between any more. … Continue reading Even Strong People Are Weak

I Didn’t Sign Up For All of This

Now that I have completed my chemo and my cancer is in remission, I am doing my best to pick up the pieces and get on with my life … but every time I do, I get a stark reminder that I am not the same. I can’t just jump in and do things like … Continue reading I Didn’t Sign Up For All of This

Sickness…Revealed

After more than a week of being so absolutely miserable, I finally got a real diagnosis and medicine that works.  I have been having what I called “phantom stomach aches” for the past couple months. As with pretty much everything that goes wrong with my body, I attributed it lingering side effects from my almost … Continue reading Sickness…Revealed

I Was Mad at God

Even though it was almost a year ago, I remember it like it was yesterday … I had just come home to Maryland from a nice two-week vacation visiting my family and friends in Kansas for the holidays and I was ready to get back to my crazy busy life. It was January so that … Continue reading I Was Mad at God

14 Side Effects of Chemo and What to Do…

I experienced so many weird side effects when I underwent chemo. During that time I feverishly searched Google to find out if these side effects were a result of the chemo and if they were, were they normal?  I found that pretty much anything weird that happened to body was a result of the chemo … Continue reading 14 Side Effects of Chemo and What to Do…

Chemo Treatment #2

Today was my second chemo treatment. One of my good friends brought me and we stopped at Ihop for breakfast. I have been struggling to eat, everything still tastes like metal – especially beverages – but I can sort of taste the food and enjoyed (as much as I could) some pancakes and eggs. We … Continue reading Chemo Treatment #2

A Night in The Emergency Room

Last night was the absolute worst! After an extra day in the hospital, I finally got to go home Friday night. I was still in pretty bad pain, but I was walking on my own and it didn’t hurt (as bad) to breathe.Well, that was short lived. As Saturday day went into evening, I got … Continue reading A Night in The Emergency Room